I remember so vividly the time I laid there, wondering how I had found myself in the wilderness so quickly. Dry. Parched. Unsure of how exactly I would live the next day, or feeling aimless like there was no direction because everything looked the same.
I would love to say it was because I was some martyr. Because suffering can somehow be glamorous in today’s society. But really, it was something the Lord was trying to prepare and refine me for. I kept putting trust in myself while trying to control everything around me. I kept thinking I was the one dealing the cards, but it wasn’t the case. Pride drove my actions and emotions, then suddenly I was stripped of everything.
Not all, but most people have been through some sort of ‘desert’ experience. Moses spent 40 years in the wilderness before God called him to lead Israel out of Egypt. The Israelites wandered in the desert for 40 years before entering the promise land. David spent time in the desert hiding from Saul before God later made him king. And Jesus was led through the wilderness for 40 days after being baptized. And though you may not have ‘literally’ been in the wilderness, figuratively, there are seasons of life where we live through difficulties where hope feels out of reach.
During our time in California, we took a day trip up to Joshua Tree. I wasn’t really sure what to expect, but when we arrived I had so many strong emotions and deep feelings. It was one of the most beautiful places I had ever been to. Part of it was due to the fact that I had never been anywhere like Joshua Tree and its uniqueness made it all the more lovely. It was this deep overwhelming sense that I had been there before in a dream… That the Lord had showed me this place before. Miles and miles of harsh land surrounded us. As we drove, I didn’t even have words to share with Ian (which is very unlike me). Continue Reading…