It’s officially the love month and my birthday month! We’ve got a lot going on but I’m looking forward to all of it.
If you’ve been following along with me on Instagram, you may have seen that two years ago at the beginning of February we were in the emergency room finding out that our first baby’s heart had stopped beating. A year ago I was struggling with postpartum and unsure of how to handle it without taking any medication, and three years ago we were dealing with some pretty heavy family illnesses and I was basically sick the entire month. I say all of that not to throw myself a pity party, but to let you know that this month I’m really going into it with a heart of openness instead of fear that it will be like years past. I recently read a book called Hope Heals about a family that’s gone through more than I could possibly imagine and way worse than any of my problems compare. I wanted to share one of the quotes that really stuck out to me.
“I can give glory to God, and it can still hurt.”
Here is where the beauty of that quote comes into play. God gets glory and brings beauty even if it hurts really bad. But hurt is not the ending.
Painful endings are beautiful beginnings. Rain helps things grow and storms end in rainbows. So this month I am taking the time in the season to reflect of the beauty of where I’m at. Here are a few of the things I’m finding beautiful right now:
-The moments Cove runs over to me and throws his arms around me and lays his head on my shoulder.
-Walking at sunset with my boys through the neighborhood.
-The fact were all in good health and the Lord has provided for us above what we could ask or need.
-This creative outlet for me and the joy I have in getting to work and interact with so many other gifted people on a weekly basis.
-The few hours I get to spend with Ian every night after Cove goes to sleep where we work, read, or laugh til we cry at ridiculous things. Married couples still have tickle fights and flirt like we’re in grade school, and I love that.
-Walking around picking up sticks and rocks with Cove and how excited he gets the minute he sees one.
-The fact that I stopped drinking my coffee in a mug and now drink it in a thermos and get to drink it hot now, hahah. But really, every morning Ian and Cove walk my coffee over to me and both give me kisses. It’s my favorite morning routine.
These are just a few, the rest I’m saving for the privacy of my journal. But all this to say, seasons are just that, seasons. They come and go and with them so do new things. Life is too short to live in fear or constant reflection of the negative. We get to choose our thoughts even if we can’t choose our circumstances. Hope you live in love and your thoughts are full of joy and hope this month. xx